Still on the TTC train

Hi readers (i dont think i have any ;) )

Well for those that dont know what TTC is, it is trying to concieve.. yup thats right j and i want little libby's and little J's!!!!

And boy it does your head in, but i think what does my head in more is people telling me to relax it will happen... well der relaxing would help, but come on who truelly totally relaxed while trying for kids!!!!! Except for those who werent trying and fell pregnant!!!!!

So we missed the boat again last month, (two months of missing the boat now good work libby) But i am actually ok with (alright i had a teary moment at work but that doesnt count) i am looking at the postives, i can play soccer for a little longer, i can save a little bit more money, j and i can get our heads around being parents for a little longer as well!!!! I think that is the most important one because havng babies changes your life doesnt it!!!

So onto something that isnt baby related... well i love all my friends but i am the agony aunt (not that i mind actually it is nice that they trust me) J thinks it is cute and he said to me the other night, do you ring and talk about me to them.... NO is the answer i dont really have anything to talk about him..

J is working shift work now, it isnt that bad and the shifts are workable so i dont mind, i think it annoys me more when he is still in bed while i am getting ready for work, i am angling for him to get up and make me lunch on those days.. hasnt worked so far!!!!

Work is work and i still enjoy it, in fact i enjoy it more this year than i did last, there was so much going on, like getting married and more responsibilities that i just didnt feel like i could sit back and take it all in like i have this year..... I love being married tho, and i all honesty it isnt that much different to when we werent married, cept now he is my husband and i am his wife (i still get excited when i use the word ;) ) We are trying really hard with t he communicating thing as i think we need to keep that going!!!! I have learnt from past mistakes with him and with D...

Talking about D he gets married in a month!!! Weird that we are all getting married and stuff!!!! All our friends are going and i think i feel a little sad that his wife to be and D are not as good friends as we should be ( i mean it didnt end that badly) makes it extra hard that all our friends are still mutual and to be honest i feel like i am missing out on heaps of fun!!! and that kinda sucks... but what can you do!!! I guess it is because i just feel like i am not really part of the group anymore (well i am but it just not the same) and i miss that (not often but i do)

hmmm needed to get that out, glad i did!!!!

Ok that is me for now!!!

Lib xoxo